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I’m writing this article and posting the interpretation of the song EVEN NOW that I realize many fans had misinterpreted the meaning of this song. Some may think Hyun Joong is singing this song to someone, NO but he’s giving this song to us which we can sing to someone we love. In fact we can even sing this song to him, which is very meaningful and the meaning actually goes to him since it’s Hyun Joong who is the one leaving us temporarily for his MS.
Listening to the meaning of EVEN NOW and viewing the MV I may say “Hyun Joong what are you trying to convey?” So here’s what, let me call your attention to the scenes without the band so we can get what he’s trying to convey. May I invite everyone to re-view the MV and read it’s interpretation below the video. My dear readers please bare with me, please help me in spreading this interpretation because it would be unfair to Hyun Joong if he’ll be misunderstood in singing this song, thank you so much!
This is a memorable song for him and to us since it may be the last song he’ll leave to us before his MS. I posted the English translation and lyrics of EVEN NOW below this article. Let’s treasure this song! Let’s sing this song with Kim Hyun Joong….
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EVEN NOW (Ima demo) is the title of this song from the music video carrying single from the album STILL and viewing this video, I’m speechless and just said WOW! Without listening to the meaning of the song I knew right at once what Hyun Joong is trying to convey in this music video. May I share my humble interpretation which is just lingering in my thoughts of this video and the song Even Now, a very meaningful song in a deeper level I can grasp.
The song tells about his memories of love that he doesn’t want to forget, and saying “If it’s not you I cannot love anyone else… I don’t want to forget”. Listening to the song immediately gives me the impression the love is for someone. But as I watch this video, I was wrong. I think Hyun Joong is pertaining to something and not someone and that is his guitar and his music which is his first love.
The first scene in the video is Hyun Joong walking in a stony ground and the surrounding looks like on fire under control and guitars burning. This is at the first lines of the song that tells about his memories, the burning guitars, the abandoned keyboard, meaning it’s music that he’s pertaining to about his memories.
The next highlighted scene was Hyun Joong still walking like dreaming aimlessly in a dark hallway there was light from windows that he just glance at and just kept walking in the dark. I describe this as the ups and down in his life in attaining his dream.
The next scene is a dead-end with abandoned musical instruments and a scene focus at the microphone he’s holding in his hand as he grip tightly, while his handsome face in glaring eyes of anger, he threw his microphone towards the musical instruments! Ouch!! I describe this scene as his hidden anger to his critics. For some reasons I was affected by this scene that I felt a pinch in my heart, having the impression is he giving up? NO WAY!
The next scene is burning musical instruments into a huge fire he was looking at, and turn his back walk away head on and stoop down. I take this as a sign of his humbleness as the flames of fire shall bring him to the heights of success in a brand new much stronger Kim Hyun Joong and his brand new music. This is what we currently see in Gemini!
MY THOUGHTS EVEN NOW
We all know that Kim Hyun Joong’s first love is music. He bought his first guitar out of his part-time job that he diligently saved money for this and he literally sleeps with his guitar. That’s how much he loves this musical instrument at the very young age in high school as he started his dreams and he was able to attain it through perseverance and hard work until he reached the ladder of stardom. Music is his first love and his dream, and he cannot live without it. He’s a persistent type of person and would never give up whatever challenge may there be, he face it head on until he achieved his dream.
A dancer will die as dancer, a singer will die as a singer and a musician will die a musician. This is an artist’s point of view, meaning an artist having a talent that runs to his blood and developed it through hard work, it’s already in his system that no matter how an artist switch his career, it’s still being an artist that he’ll be day dreaming on his retirement days. With Hyun Joong it’s still music that he will ever long for, he grew from it, music is his air to breath, it’s his food and water in order to live.
Can you just imagine a person being stolen taking away from what he grew up with and love so deeply? Do you know how painful that can be? That’s how painful it was for Hyun Joong. Music is his life and that is why he doesn’t want to forget as what the song says and he will never forget his music whatever happens.
That gave me a lot of hope in the end watching this video as he sang saying “I don’t want to forget”. But throwing the microphone really hurts because I never want him to give up music. Music belongs to him and Kim Hyun Joong belongs to music that no one or anything can take it away from him, period.
Music is his first love, that one time in his life it was love that was trying to kill it and trying to take it away from him! But it was also love that revived his first love in music. And it’s happening that we currently see in Gemini, the pure love from his fans made it to bring his music back to him wholeheartedly. *sigh* Such an amazing man Kim Hyun Joong is.
In this music video it ended Hyun Joong walking away from the burning musical instruments which for me perceive as turning back from the past and facing the future. As he said in the song “I don’t want to forget” yes he will never forget…. Whatever it may be we all learn from experience, the past will remain a memory BUT I believe Hyun Joong will be back to his music as a brand new musician much stronger and wiser after his MS.
Just my thoughts that I want to say this…
“Here’s a boy who has an Unforgettable story behind him and now is facing a new stage of his life…….towards the future of an Unforgettable man of all times.”
I don’t want to forget Kim Hyun Joong, STILL the only one, the greatest artist I have ever known….unforgettable, that’s what you are!
LOYALTY TO MUSIC, LOYAL TO YOU!
I don’t mean to break our happy days to have other thoughts than Hyun Joong and Gemini, I just want to clarify the meaning of this song EVEN NOW. This song is NOT to that woman who destroyed his life or to anyone in particular, may I just clear that up! This song is for his FIRST LOVE which is his MUSIC.
His MS is just around the corner as he mentioned in Yokohama this will be his last concert series and this song “may be” his last song for us. Let’s just say he’s bidding farewell to his music since he’ll be away for 2 or 3 years, as this is the way I describe the MV. And maybe by the time he comes back he’ll be changing to other music genre, that’s possible knowing this guy is fond of innovating his music, we may never know the future.
As I have mentioned earlier Hyun Joong is sharing this song to all of us but since it’s him who is leaving I think it’s time for us to sing EVEN NOW for him instead. With the same thoughts as he said in this song….. “I cannot love anyone else if it’s not you… I don’t want to forget.”
I hope his Japanese fans can read this, so that they can sing this song with him at his concert!
The memories of him is not that easy to forget, how can we if we can’t even get enough of him!! It’s never enough!! However, the important thing is we do not forget him. Well I can only speak for myself because this is very true to me, I cannot have someone else to be my idol, to follow, to protect, to defend, to the extent of writing articles for whoever! I tried but it wasn’t effective at all!! LOL This made me conclude my writings is truly exclusively for Kim Hyun Joong.
There are memories in our lives that we cannot forget no matter what we do, and for me Kim Hyun Joong is one person I can never forget, I’m sure everyone here shares the same thought….so shall we call Kim Hyun Joong our ONLY ONE LOVE…. STILL….
LazerKim here writing
Let’s sing this song with Kim Hyun Joong!
EVEN NOW (IMA DEMO) LYRICS
Ima mo kimi no omoi de ga, Ima mo iro ase na kute
Toki ga nagare tara, kioku mo usu reru, Oro ka ni mo so shinji teta
Ayamachi nara, doko kara ka, Omokage o, egai te wa
Kimi dake o moto me teru,
Namida de arai nagashi, Betsu no kioku dai temo
Kimi o….. ima demo, Kazoe kire nai hodo no
Amai yoru to kotoba to, Kimi o…..wasure rare na, te ima demo
Ima mo kimi yo yubisaki, (I feel baby) Ima no kimi ga mune o ta ta ku
Ayamachi nara, doko kara ka, Omokage o egai te wa
kimi shika, ai se nakute
Namida de arai nagashi, Betsu no kioku dai temo
Kimi o….. ima demo, Kazoe kire nai hodo no
Amai yoru to kotoba to, Kimi o…..wasure rare na kute ima demo
Kimi ga tachi satta kokoro wa kaseki dare ke
Dare mo mitase, nai daro…..so sa ima demo….
Namida de yoru akashi, Kasane ta kasuka na emi
Kimi o…..ima demo…..
Kimi to waru i ta mi chi, Tai ai mo nai subete o
Kimi o…. wasurete ku nai yo….ima demo…ima demo
Wasure nai wasure rare na i…. ima demo….made ***
English Trans. EVEN NOW (Shared by Nixie, thanks!)
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