By: LazerKim Hello everyone! I’m LazerKim who’s totally at lost for almost four months and I’m glad to find my way back here in this blog of the Alien family! Oh you just don’t know how nice it feels to be back saying hello to everyone! May I just say I’m not here to write for updates since I got nothing at hand or I may have lots but not a good time to disclose. There’s a saying when you’re at lost or in pain and there’s nowhere you can go, there’s always a place called home to run to as your comfort zone.
This is exactly what I feel at this very moment that I would like to share with you, and as you read on further you’ll get to understand what I mean. I got three lengthy topics to touch because I’m afraid it would take time again to have the chance to write. But at the end of this article I hope I can make you smile even it’s less than about updates, but about unconditional love.
MY HOME SWEET HOME
We all know that whenever there’s something sharp pointed to our chest, simply look for Kim Hyun Joong and pain just go away that you can smile again! I had that experience last year and this blog became that home for me to run to for cure or a habit for healing. Do you think it’s only us fans of Kim Hyun Joong has that in mind?
Well, may I just share that there are moments that Hyun Joong feels down and what relieves his feeling down is reading! Hyun Joong is very fond of reading articles about him, as he finds interest in what his fans wanted to tell him or what they feel about him being his fans. It is from his fans that he pulls out strength to move on whenever he stumbles down. And had that in one occasion but managed to pull himself up all because of his fans inspiring him heart and soul.
REMENISING RARE CHANCE
Needless to say that everyone already knew that Hyun Joong had a very successful concert series here in Japan and a very memorable one to each and every Japanese and lots of international fans who were there at the concert series here in Japan. I had the experience of watching Hyun Joong on stage just like a simple person, no make up still handsome and manly, no flashy outfit but simply himself and his music. These are just simple rare chance that I can never forget.
There were just a few production staffs seated at the audience gallery at dawn preparing for each big night concert. There was just a complete silence, no cheering, no big crowd but only the sweet voice of Hyun Joong and the band rehearsing. Hyun Joong has a very good eye contact and sings with all his heart out as if his audience are his lovers, even it was just a rough run thru rehearsals, I could feel his emotions. This is my favorite part of the entire concert series preparation because I finally have seen that simple man Hyun Joong was describing.
During the concert proper, I stood near the audio control area that I can watch Hyun Joong and his fans. And in every concert location, there’s one common ground, which I called a strong bond between an idol and his fans. Hyun Joong captured the hearts of his audience as his audience also captured Hyun Joong’s spirit as he performed in the highest peak of his adrenaline, that seemed to be an endless happiness to both Hyun Joong and his fans.
I wrote an article which I mentioned that the first and the last concert is the most important among the series. Overall concerts I would say the last one in Hiroshima that Hyun Joong left a lasting memory of his being a rocker. I was deeply moved by Hyun Joong losing control of his emotion that no matter how he tried to hold back, his tears just fell from his eyes. I can’t hold back my tears as well since being a part of the team for the last four months has been truly memorable having Hyun Joong there with us.
He was overwhelmed by how his audience showed their appreciation for what Hyun Joong made them happy the entire series. This guy is tough on the surface but deep inside he is soft specially to his fans. Now I would say, I got the right opinion about him. He’s more than what I thought and have seen more than what I expected from him being a star.
OVERRATED?? COME ON!!
On one of my rest days, I had the chance to hit the internet, and for the first time in months I was able to visit my own blog with the article GREATLY IN-DEMAND which was my last article during the concert series. I would like to thank my regular readers for your endless concern about me at the same time may I apologize for keeping you waiting for what I can write.
I would like to grab this chance while I still have it, to clarify something pertaining my absence. I read from my comment box from Mr. Anonymous which may have the same opinion with others. I tend to ignore the comment since some of my regular readers defended me in my behalf and that I’m so thankful to them for their understanding and being considerate. Anyway, here’s the comment:
“its been a Whle! where is the bloggers? Ohhh i know…i think she get sick and tired ….of overrating ur so called alien prince….just handsome is nothing here in korea talent matters most…..PEACE TO ALL!!!!!!!!!!
Well this was written a month ago I think, and I would like to think I owe an explanation pertaining my absence even I had already explained from that article where I found this comment. Anyway, last year, I have been very active as a fan writer simply because I was blessed with generous time to research and write all about Kim Hyun Joong during my recovery, that I’m truly grateful for that chance to share my opinion, my thoughts and feelings. Unfortunately, I was being recalled to report to my previous profession to assist in working on stage production here in Japan last January that gave me a very good chance to work, that I was made to choose between bringing Hyun Joong closer to his fans or my cherish profession.
Now going back to the comment, first, I never intended to overrate Kim Hyun Joong, specially at this time that I have already proven to myself who Kim Hyun Joong is in reality. I write whatever documented facts there are about Hyun Joong and share my opinion pertaining to what I have read and now seeing those that I have read from the guy himself I don’t think I have ever overrated Hyun Joong as a star and as a person.
Second, the comment stated “just handsome is nothing here in Korea talent matters most”. Pardon me for saying this, but, what’s with Korea? Whether Hyun Joong is popular in Korea or not, for me is irrelevant, he’s my idol and I will remain to be his fan no matter what happens. Does this mean if Hyun Joong isn’t popular in Korea then he doesn’t have the right to be popular in the bigger part of the world as he is at present?? Come on!! But I’m thankful to Mr Anonymous for reading my articles at least he’s aware of my absence!! LOL!! All the while I thought it’s only the Alien family that I miss!! But I also miss the insects!! Hey I’m still here to bug you off!!
I don’t have any intention to close down this blog nor placing it on hiatus because I still want to come back and write all about Kim Hyun Joong again in the future. Time is my problem since I have been extremely busy with work, that eight hours sleep became my precious chance to re-charge which is rare!! So I don’t think I can go back as regular fan writer at least not at this period yet, that I sincerely hope my regular readers would understand. I will never forget what Hyun Joong built within his family of fans or from the Alien world that this blog has already been my home with the Alien family and of course with Kim Hyun Joong.
I actually wrote the topics above in April 9 but had failed to publish it. This time as I continue this article, I would like to clear the air about something happened during my absence which I admit this may be another delayed reaction, but I just feel I have to do this. A regular reader of mine was kind enough to share what’s going on around the fandom, and shared a link from a blogger naming the blog Angel of the East Kim Hyun Joong. But what was shared to me was not an article about Kim Hyun Joong but, his best friend Kim JaeJong, under the said Hyun Joong’s fan blog site.
Yes it’s true it was I who recommended the blogger to my readers. Honestly, before the year ended last year I knew all along that I would be recalled in my previous job post that made me really worried that I might not be able to write again, considering the nature of my work schedule. And so I was encouraging some fans to open up their blog and share their thoughts about Kim Hyun Joong, as what I used to be doing in the past one year 2012.
I understand my readers have gone used to reading daily articles and I would like them to continue reading on to keep Hyun Joong closer to his fans. We bloggers have every right to write what we want, but I also have realized it’s not that easy as saying it. At some point being a fan writer, I was also crucified by other artist’s fans for being honest with my opinion of their idols. The same thing happened to Angel of the East, only it was worst to be misunderstood by other co-fans.
Kim Hyun Joong and Kim Jae Joong may be best friends supporting each other but having been at the same field of profession on same Kpop category, they are still considered as competitors in the public eye. That’s showbiz in reality, no friends no neighbors simply showbiz in friendly competition.
Now here it is. I read or I saw the article about JaeJoong from the blog Angel of the East Kim Hyun Joong and without further reading the article my initial reaction to the blogger was this, “oh so she switched to JaeJoong.” I wasn’t affected knowing that anyone can support any artist any time. But later on I found out it’s not what I thought. I didn’t bother to read the article since it’s not within my interest to read about the guy. A fan friend of mine wrote to me and mentioned about the article but I decided to brush it off my shoulder, since I didn’t have much time to stay at the internet and react to the article.
After a week another article was passed on to me from the same blog, but this time it’s about Hyun Joong’s album that appears to be comparing it with JaeJoong’s album. I ignored the article for the second time, but my eyes were caught by the negative comments to the article and that my name was also mentioned in the comment box. And so I read the article, to find out the reason for those negative comments.
A fan wrote in that article’s comment box as stated something like, “LazerKim would be disappointed in reading this article”, and I would lie if I say I wasn’t disappointed by the article. Anyway, I was reminded by an article I wrote entitled “Extra Thoughts” and I wrote a suggestion that in case any fan may have comments about Hyun Joong which is not so good to read, it would be better to come up straight to him through snail mail and address your comments to him which is I think the most professional way instead of posting it. This would avoid confusions or misunderstanding among the fans whoever may read a negative post from a fan.
I think some fans may not want to read such blog from a co-fan, but do they have a choice if the blog is tagged for Kim Hyun Joong, and after reading the article it’s not about him after all? It’s like misleading by first impression although unintentional!! And so I do understand the fans who wrote some negative comments about the blogger that created confusions. I believe the article was not meant to be harsh on Hyun Joong though as the blogger intended to review Hyun Joong’s Unlimited Album on her own opinion.
The article was not a criticism but comparison between the Unlimited album and Jaejong’s album and stating his album is better than Unlimited in her personal opinion. Although I believe the fans who made the negative comments to the blogger may or may not be against Jaejong’s album, it’s just that the article I think was placed in the wrong blog site! This is just how I see the entire scenario, the blog title and the article doesn’t jive at all that seem to be misleading!!
Other than the fact that we fans have different preference in terms of music, meaning there’s nothing wrong about the music we want to listen to and it all depends on our own individual taste in music. So I just don’t believe in reviews in terms of music even the review was done by music experts. I guess the blogger have realized the mistake and finally made another blog site where she can pour out her feelings to another artist, which I think is a wise decision.
I just would like to point out in response to the recent article of Angel of the East as she stated that she has done the album review to encourage Hyun Joong to develop just like talking to a friend. I’m an artist too same as Hyun Joong on the same field, and if there’s something that I would like to say to a co-artist or a friend of mine, I would like to be honest in my opinion about him, BUT I would prefer to talk to him ALONE. If I care so much to encourage and develop an artist, I wouldn’t want others to hear what I have to say, specially if my opinion is somewhat negative to the other person. This is if I sincerely care. Oh well at the end of the day no matter what frictions there may be around we’re still family with Hyun Joong, and nothing else matter!
Speaking in general, we do not know what Hyun Joong truly feels, he’s a public figure and we do not know whether he’s hurt, or how sensitive he is, and all I know is that he’s fond of reading articles about himself and that way of boosting his strength by reading from his fans, truly inspires him. Well who wants to be criticized in public or to be compared whether it’s a project result, an album or whatever, in the first place? I think this is just a matter of putting ourselves into his shoes to understand him as an artist or just a person like us.
He’s a man, he himself has a natural man’s ego, and we may never know he might even be a jealous type of artist or merely sensitive being compared to his best friend. If we fans are just so sensitive whenever Hyun Joong being criticized, what more with him if he’s the person concern. Public figures may be used to be criticized but they are still human like us with feelings.
At the same time I’m not saying we cannot criticize Hyun Joong but let’s put it in the right way without bringing the guy to embarrassment as his fans or bringing other fans into misunderstanding. Not because Hyun Joong said he’s open to criticisms we would just post it anywhere! Let’s be a little considerate about the guy. Like I mentioned earlier, we can always write to him through snail mail and I’m sure he will appreciate it very much to address whatever your comments or sentiments are.
That’s Superman below!
A fan can always abandon her idol any time, but Hyun Joong can never abandon his fans no matter what pain he got. I’m not here to lead you all to blind admiration, as I have mentioned in my past articles I’m not in the position to criticize his talent ability since I believe he has a bunch of experts working behind him to do that job. So you’ll never get to read one from me because I like his style and his music right from the very start, specially now that I have watched him over and over again within his recent concert series.
But I would be very vocal directly to him if he’s on the wrong track in treating his fans, that I promise. But this doesn’t mean I’ll be giving up on him as my idol. Just the same with Hyun Joong, he doesn’t know his fans personally that even we make mistakes or hurt him, he’ll just accept us and he’ll never give up on us as his fans. A typical unconditional love.
Is there a need to have a reason in loving a person? What if those qualities we love in that person faded, wouldn’t you love him anymore? Again I was reminded by my aunt’s admiration to her idol actress, which I have written the article “Life Line” as her idol turned to a drug addict, my aunt didn’t gave up on her even she faded from the lime light. As she said, you don’t leave your idol when he or she’s down, because it’s the time that your idol needs you the most and that’s the time he’ll personally recognize you when there’s no longer a big crowd blocking your way from your idol. I would like to be the same with my aunt. This I think is an example of unconditional love for an idol.
READING THE PRINCE’S HEART
Hyun Joong once said this, “I don’t want to be number one because number one can be number two, but I would like to be ONLY ONE.” This is his aim among his fans, but read between the lines and judge for yourself what he meant. I mentioned this once but may I say it again. We fans have every right of choice whomever we want to support, but Hyun Joong embraces whoever is in front of him watching him as he performs on stage irregardless whoever she is or whomever artist they support other than Kim Hyun Joong. In short, while we all have the choice, Hyun Joong doesn’t have that choice in terms of people admiring him or criticizing him.
As I mentioned earlier Hyun Joong pulls out his strength from his fans. In his last concert in Hiroshima, he broke down again and I was deeply moved knowing he’s so overwhelm by what his fans showed to him at every concert series. Do you know the old saying, in an artist, simply hearing his audience applaud and seeing them happy by his performance is such a huge reward beyond words to describe an artist feeling. Hyun Joong is one good example in this old saying. If he was able to make his audience happy, count that a hundred times to Hyun Joong’s happiness after every concert. And that’s very true to Hyun Joong, the stage is his soul whenever his fans are right there in front of him.
And so for those who may accuse me of overrating Hyun Joong, I don’t think that’s right to say at all. Now that I have realized how much he had shared with his fans about himself in reality. Just read on to those articles I have written in the past, specially for those new fans and know more about him. It’s so rewarding for me to have an idol whom I can always be proud of on and off camera.
NO TO FAREWELL
My apology for taking so long to write again after Hyun Joong’s concert series, but I’ll be back. And my apology if I seem at lost this time pertaining updates about Hyun Joong that I used to share with you. It may take time again before I can ever come back, although I’m still hoping I can write during my rest days. But please do not forget to PROTECT THE PRINCE always. At this time I think he’s in Jakarta if I’m not mistaken, for his TV show Barefoot Friends, gosh this is all I know and it makes me really sad that I don’t even have the time to browse at the internet as often as used to!! Oh and also please don’t be mislead, I allowed my niece to handle my facebook account, just for those kiddie games! Don’t worry she’s harmless!
I sincerely hope that my absence would not cause any misunderstanding, again may I specifically clarify that I’m still with Kim Hyun Joong as a loyal fan as ever and will remain as ONLY ONE in my life as my sole idol. Time and work may have taken my presence but never my heart which only belongs to Kim Hyun Joong as his fan. No matter what others may say, there’s that definite and unconditional love I got or we got for our idol. It’s like magic that we barely know the guy personally but the attachment is so undeniable.
Oh by the way, may I just mention, when my pet dog Jaya died in April 2 I was crying and since I got no one to share with since everyone at work were so busy to listen, I thought about the Alien family and coming home for a shoulder to cry on! My readers became someone whom I can share with and that I will never forget. I wasn’t with my dog when she died and that was so sad, but I have to work that it even hurt badly since I have to hold back my tears and be professional! She may just be a dog who have been keeping me company for 14 years but she was so precious to me. This was what I was pertaining to at the beginning of this article, another unconditional love for a pet dog! May I just say this….Hyun Joong please take care of Art and Matic, I don’t want you to lose them, itai yo!
Well, I say No to farewell, but I want to say SEE YOU AGAIN!! For the new fans, there are about 350 articles which I have written last year that you can read on. I sincerely hope these articles are enough for you to read until I come back. For my regular readers, what can I say, I miss you all so terribly!! Please forgive me if I have chosen my profession this time, but I’ll be back. And also please keep eye on insects!! LOL I miss them too!! I wonder if they miss me too!!
And also Hyun Joong I think is quite happy with his new TV show although it’s sad to think knowing he loves the stage to perform live that he’s currently taking a short break from it, but the stage is just waiting for him to rock it again!!. In the meantime I do hope you guys would enjoy watching him on Barefoot Friends since Hyun Joong had been away from the small screen for one year so I think it’s about time he gets back bouncing on those games again the way we watched him in the past years.
Lastly, I would like to thank my regular readers again for waiting and thank you very much for your concern over me. I’m doing just great even with hectic work schedule, but this work cannot be an excuse for me to go far from Kim Hyun Joong, which is very unlikely to happen. On the contrary it made me stay connected on facts all about Kim Hyun Joong.
It’s so exciting to say Hello to everyone, but so sad to say… see you again next time!!
LazerKim here writing
Photo credits as tagged: Ms. D thanks!