By: LazerKim Kim Hyun Joong attended the VIP preview of the movie Jakal is Coming last night November 8 starred by Kim Jae Joong, as the movie shall be first shown on November 15. Hyun Joong attended the preview to show support to his best friend Jae Joong as his first movie ever. That’s it for an update as of yesterday but I’m sure glad to see Hyun Joong even just in photos! All in black from head to toes, he’s just so gorgeous!!
WORDS OF TRUTH
During the time I was on my research I came across a talk show hosted by Kang Hodong as Hyun Joong was the only guest in the show. We know very well that Hyun Joong is known for his candid honestly and I think Kang Hodong knows this fact more than anyone else since Hyun Joong had always been his guest in his talk shows. This talk show was aired last year during his launching of first album as solo Breakdown, a year after Hyun Joong moved in to KeyEast.
In the 2010 fiasco Hyun Joong accepted all the words thrown to him, and it was only after a year that Hyun Joong finally spoke of what he felt. I’m putting these interviews to record since the translation were being deleted from the video clips.
Kang Hodong asked: Why did you say that you would not leave DSP unless kicked out?
Hyun Joong replied: “I said that on Radio Star. At that time, only 5 months remained on my contract and we still had one more album to complete and the group members did not talk at all. That is why I think I said it that way. Then, after the album was completed, we talked. I felt that everything that SS501 can show as a group has been all done. We said that it does not mean that the group has disbanded but that we each need to go out separate ways.
So each member found an agency that was suitable to them and left. The DSP president called me out to the hotel bar and asked what I intend to do, are you going to leave or not? Why are you taking too long? I ended up drinking the whole bottle of alcohol before telling him that, I would like to try working with someone else. DSP President told me , son, you don’t have to stress over, you are a man…I will help you if you are having a hard time finding an agency…
Hyun Joong said: “If I did not say I was sorry before the president took ill, I would not have been able to leave the agency. I hope that if I come out as number one with his music or drama or whatever and I has a chance to say a few words, I would like to first thank the president of DSP and to wish him good health.”
I probably would only take the words of Hyun Joong and not from media or other blogs. The ceo of DSP Lee Ho Yeon express his concern over Hyun Joong but clearly stated he’s releasing Hyun Joong as his artist. As Hyun Joong expressed his desire to work with somebody else and it is his right. I admire Hyun Joong for his professionalism, that no matter what happened in the past, he never breath a word against DSP. Although I have seen a lot of loop holes or short comings of DSP as an agent to the group members.
To the question as to why Hyun Joong decided to move in to another agent, seemed obvious, since his contract expired and that DSP apparently does not have any intention to renew the contract of SS501, I think Hyun Joong knew this all along. Here’s what he said:
“When I thought about moving to another singing agency, there was not anything suitable for me. For an entire month, I could not sleep worrying about my future, Every time I browse the internet, the media already talked about where I signed with what fee…I said to myself why don’t they call me and really offer the proposal!!? Then, Yong Joon hyung called me. I met him before because my manager hyung knew him.
Initially I was going to meet with the representative of KeyEast to receive advice for my situation. But on the first meeting, they talked about KeyEast and the second meeting, they gave me their contract and then I just signed up with them. The main reason for signing with KeyEast is that I was looking for an agency that would really support me and also respect my staff of dancer hyung and KeyEast gave me the best condition.”
Initially KeyEast is a company that caters for actors and actresses and since Hyun Joong is also an actor so the company suits his category as well. But as he was given the liberty as a solo singer, pouring all out support to Hyun Joong’s projects as a singer, he just popped out in a huge success beyond anyone’s expectation. What agent company would not say they are lucky to have Kim Hyun Joong? Well, he proved his ability and ending up as the precious gem of KeyEast.
Indeed in reality, everything that happens to our lives has every reason why it has to happen. Hyun Joong is destined to leave DSP sooner or later and Hyun Joong is destined to be with KeyEast in the future. And that future is happening at present. Hyun Joong is a very realistic type of person, as he had surpassed his dilemma over the thoughts of choosing the right people to work with for his future.
Kang Hodong: SS501 makes its first debut on June 8, 2005. How was it??
Hyun Joong: After the first broadcast, I cried. But I did not understand why. I thought about it. I think it was the feeling of accomplishment and the flood of the thoughts of the hard training days.
Kang Hodong: How did your parents feel about their once rebellious son making the debut?
Hyun Joong: That day, I just went out like any other day..I did not tell them that I will be making the debut on air. Just greeted them goodbye and left. But somehow they found out and came to the debut . I found out through the hyungs who came to congratulate me and they told me that they saw my parents and that they saw them cry quietly in the back.
Kang Hodong: You still did not talk about that day with your parents? You did not even ask if they came?
KHJ: No. I just feel very uncomfortable talking about such things. I am not that good at expressing what is on my mind.
KHD: So, today, what kind of son is KHJ?
KHJ: I still am not very expressive. Actually I think I became even more silent. I earned the money and bought for them a car. But what I regret is that because I bought the car with cash, I did not get the tax benefit. That time, I only had money for a second hand car. So I took 2500mon won to the dealer and asked for the most expensive car. The dealer brought the black car with a sun roof. I signed for it and paid.
Then, I thought about how I’m going to give this gift to his parents. I felt so uncomfortable saying to my parents that I wanted to give a gift of a car and to tell them to drive safely and to stay healthy. I felt so uncomfortable that I asked the dealer to deliver the car to my father. Then, due to feelings of embarrassment, I did not go back to the house at all. My mother called me and asked what this car is. I just told her to take the car and then hang up on her.
KHD: Do you give a lot of spending money to your parents?
KHJ: Yes, I do. But I do not give them myself. An automatic deposit system has been set up on a regular basis.
I think a person who finds it hard to express his feelings in words, would just break down into tears. In some incidents we have seen Hyun Joong just break down, I’m wondering how he is if being alone in his thoughts. I remember in one talk show he was saying that whenever he’s down he doesn’t want to stay home alone. Now as a star, Hyun Joong wouldn’t mind what others may think of him for as long as he tells the truth. This is contrast to other celeb, that can only relate to their good sides, and cover up the bad ones. He was rebellious when he was in High School, from a role model student in elementary to a bad boy.
He revealed a lot in this talk show that as I was reading about it, the more I like him. It’s true maybe he’s the least kind of son a parent may have, but what Hyun Joong developed in himself is his honesty at the same time he developed that fear of rejection that he grew up with. He could not express himself and his feelings for fears of being outcast, ignored and rejected. This is how I see from him after reading this translation. But true to himself he is a very loving man and would show it not in words but in deeds, that one have to read his heart to understand how good and gentle this man is.
Now I understand why Hyun Joong was wondering why a lot of people likes him. How I wish I could bring back the time for Hyun Joong when he was a kid and how I wish to turn the clock backwards for his parents to see how precious their son is. Not that I’m trying to criticize his parents, please don’t get me wrong, it’s just that people have different way of thinking as they grow matured, nowadays as kids grow they develop their own mind that we cannot insist on something we want for them. We parents can only guide but not dictate to what we want our kids to be. I have the same experience with Hyun Joong during my high school days. I understand the feeling of being rejected too.
BLESSED WITH LOVE
But as Hyun Joong grew up, now he is blessed with so many love from others from the entire world. I would like to think maybe this is one reason why Hyun Joong is blessed with so many mother fans, grandma fans whom he lost, even male elder fans now are what he’s gaining! He now feels that love, that understanding and acceptance for who he really is as a person, and people to appreciate what he wanted which is his music, that he missed from his younger years.
I cannot bring myself to criticize Hyun Joong because he had those even from his younger years, and I think the guy had enough. There’s only one lie Hyun Joong made, it was when he said he wanted to be criticized so he can develop himself. It maybe true but I still think there’s someone an expert, a better person to criticize to point out his shortcomings, but not from others who are unwarranted. Because for me he had enough of those criticisms and rejections.
In this talk show with Kang Hodong, Hyun Joong mentioned that he bought a house for his parents, that time in this talk show he was saying he have not told his parents about it, and that he does not know how he’ll tell them. I believe Hyun Joong is a responsible son and that he loves his parents very much, it’s just that he could not express his love and his way of expressing it is through providing their needs. And I’m sure his parents do appreciate what he’s doing, Hyun Joong, I think fears rejection as he grew up with it when his parents had strongly rejected being his rebellious in the past, because he wanted something for himself that his parents strongly disagree.
I do not know why I feel sad for Hyun Joong, maybe because I feel he loves his parents very much. For me I think Hyun Joong is a precious son, a loving responsible one.
LazerKim here writing
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