By: LazerKim Today I don’t have any update news, since it was already said in the news that Kim Hyun Joong shall focus on his filming for City Conquest, so let’s leave him to his work zone! As I was browsing yesterday, I came across a write-up from a blogger which after I read the lengthy write-up, I just feel as if there’s a hallow blocks on my chest. You know that thing use in the construction in building walls!! In short I felt unhappy, but I will not share anything that will make you unhappy either. I hope! And so I will just react to the write up with all smiles and reverse the negative to positive!!
I do not know how to start this article honestly. But may I ask, does a writer and reader do co-exist? What I write in this blog are my thoughts about facts which I have read from the update news about Hyun Joong or from his interviews. Mostly are about Hyun Joong’s career which I can easily relate with since I’m an artist like him too. I’ve been a dancer all my life until last year when I met my time to stop due to accident. Kim Hyun Joong is an artist by heart, and a stage addict. He loves performing on stage and seeing his fans enjoying it with him is such a great joy for him, enough to say the hard work at the studio paid off, just hearing his fans cheer for him is enough to tone down his fatigue. This is true to any artist by heart or the real ones.
I’ve been working on stage for the last 23 years of my life and I have met different kinds of artists. There are artists or even stars who can pretend or perform putting money priority over performance. And there are artists who are for real sincere in what they do and Hyun Joong is one of the very few who is quite sincere to anything he does. I’m one of those fans who hates the word Fan Service and Job. Because I’m an artist by heart too, same as Hyun Joong although different in nature. I just feel uncomfortable to be reading these words Fan Service and Job to interpret what Hyun Joong was doing on his fan meeting concerts. I would just like to stress out, we do feel who is sincere and who is not.
I can only speak for myself being an artist in real life. After every successful show, we artists get together to unwind, have a late dinner and drink with the rest of the production staffs and crew. Do you know what we usually talk about? We want to do the show again, we want to go back to that stage and perform endlessly. This thought is no difference with Hyun Joong, believe me. After every successful concert the only thing he wants to do is to go back on stage and rewind the show. He reminisce how it felt like to be cheered upon and seeing those big smiles from his fans is such rewarding feeling for any artist by heart. I’m actually contradicting a non-artist point of view, but a student fan who seem to me who do not understand how it is to be an artist. Here’s what she wrote, and may I quote:
Whatever it is that we think equates “closeness” is just part of HJ’s job. I know some fans hate this word ‘job’ and ‘fan service’. But face it, it is what it is. He might have enjoyed it, performing for his fans and seeing all our smiles, but do you really think HJ’s heart will flutter in happiness knowing how happy you are? Unlikely. If he’s feeling happy about it, it’s because any person with a single ounce of passion for performing will feel happy when someone in the crowd cheered for him, and got high because of his performances.At that moment is where the audience and the performer feel the closest to each other, because as an audience, we seemed to have felt his passion to perform, and as the performer, he relished over the temporary moment that his audience understood the amount of hard work he has put to make this performance happen.
You know what? As an artist this remark is a slap on our face, what can I do the fan who wrote this is so ignorant to the feelings of an artist. So I would like to clear it up, yes artist do have different characters on stage, we have to put our best foot to perfection that even we’re sick the show must go on no matter what. Just as this blogger said, when the stage lights turn off, it’s over. No dear, it doesn’t end from there not unless the artist is just about to retire. As a star they have accepted the fact that they will be followed by fans, if not then it’s a failure for them being a star.
It’s true Hyun Joong’s smiles are rare off cam, if you do not know him you may think he’s snob as first impression. But this doesn’t mean anything to him it’s just him by nature. If you smile at him first, he’ll either smile back or nod, try approaching him talking to him first, and he’ll respond courteously. I think we have accepted Hyun Joong for what he is either on or off camera.
I’m a choreographer and producer by profession and artists do come and go my way and as I have mentioned in my recent article, I did not recognized Hyun Joong the first time I met him in 2010 at Tokyo Dome, thinking he’s just another artist, but in all fairness he’s very courteous and jolly, maybe because the stage was very familiar to him where I met him. Then again followed this year in February in Yokohama, Tokyo and I have the same impression about him, it’s just that in February I already know who he was!! Just one comment, we talked in Nihongo, I just couldn’t understand, on stage why he’s so shy to speak up even in simple Japanese, but he can.
I would know who’s who. Yes there are stars who are snob and swell headed, that’s why I don’t mind them and treat them with equal respect to the dancers and nothing special. Hyun Joong is different, I can tell his sincerity and in fact even his fans would feel if an artist is sincere or not. I find the blog to be insulting to Hyun Joong as an artist by heart. She must be pertaining to his fans and I as a fan I find her views to be underrating.
This young fan would write her experience in following Hyun Joong at the fan meeting concert and her experience about seeing Hyun Joong at Jaksal that I think she was misinterpreted as someone who might be close to Hyun Joong. There was also one time she wrote some idea insinuating about Hyun Joong’s privacy. And now here she goes that seems to me she’s complaining that other fans were asking her about Hyun Joong phone number and address!! What do you expect? What is she trying to project in writing such experience? Of course teenage fans would surely run after her for information.
I don’t know what to think about that blog, I would know if what I’m reading is good and if it’s not so good, yes, it feels like there is a big stone on my chest while reading. I want to say another fan barely knows Hyun Joong by heart. I want to tell her read your blog and say it to yourself and not to other fans. Because the don’t that she’s been saying is exactly what she’s doing and writing. And this bothers me. It somehow gave me the impression that some fans are being underrated?? Here’s what she wrote:
And since we’re on this, I think a very good question to ask ourselves is what HJ will think and feel if he knows that as a fan, you have neglected your personal life, your family, your friends, your future, and spent every single moment deeply involved in fandom? I wish to believe, and also strongly believe that HJ is not some shallow celebrity who only wants everyone to love and cheer for him. Even though he might not know the fans personally, he does at least care, on a general basis, how his fans are doing. If he was to know the extent of extremeness and sacrifice fans have done for him, I don’t know. Don’t you think that he might actually feel bad knowing that he is indirectly the result of many destroyed lives? And yes, destroyed is not a wrong word to use here in my opinion, because one can get so involved that they forget everyone else around them. They’re willing to put their families and friends second when it comes to fandom. They are happy to throw away their entire savings, neglect moving ahead or working towards their future.
When the lights go off, darkness will remind us of reality. And if it doesn’t remind you of reality, maybe it’s high time to try to remind yourself soon. Even if you don’t love yourself enough to do that, love HJ enough to see that he doesn’t want to be the cause of destroying other people’s lives.
Huh?? What?? It’s so funny that I speak of inspiration here, how much Hyun Joong has been inspiring people, but this girl speaks of destroying oneself being a fan of Hyun Joong! Oh my God, I wonder if she knows what’s she is saying! It somehow gave me the impression that one fan wants to commit suicide and that she’s trying to let her see reality that Hyun Joong is a fantasy! Come on girl! I don’t know if I want to cry or laugh! I don’t mean to be insulting here I just couldn’t believe what I have just read from a fan. The blog is too lengthy but the message is simple “leave me alone”! And so be it, leave her alone you won’t learn anything from this blogger.
Now look who’s talking, this girl followed Hyun Joong’s concert in Hongkong Singapore, Taiwan,China and followed him at Jaksal in Korea. And she’s just a student, now she’s talking about the future of others and entire savings, even concern others about old age. So what about her school isn’t that negligence on her part? So how would anyone expect to believe in her blog!
And another thing, Hyun Joong is already a star, this is what he wants for himself I think everyone knows this, since high school he’s been saying he wants to be a celebrity. A star do not roam around the streets as if he’s just an ordinary person. And yes Hyun Joong knows his limitations being a star or every famous celeb have already accepted that this is gonna be their situation in life, locked up!! They should stay home and in their hotel rooms, this is nothing unusual to them. Remember, if a star or artist can still be seen in public by themselves then they are not popular, I think this is a simple common sense. As she wrote:
If he ignores everyone, some fans might say he’s arrogant and bad to fans. If he’s nice to us, it becomes a burden to him. So what’s the best solution? Stay home. I totally would, if I’m in his shoes. Order delivery and eat at home. Ask my friends to come over instead. And then we lament about things like, “Oh poor HJ, he always stay in the hotel room whenever he travels.” Who wouldn’t, if the only place you can be yourself is your own hotel room?
Why blame the fans if Hyun Joong have to stay in his hotel room whenever he’s in another country? Where else can he go if his purpose of being in another country is to perform? Do you expect him to go for a tour? No he’s there on business, so he’ll work, attend to press con, attend to his stage rehearsals, attend to interviews and other public exposures, that’s his purpose of traveling, not unless he declares he’s on holiday. No star would be on business trip to go for ride and tour around like an ordinary tourist. Hello!
There’s a big difference between following and stalking, if this blogger is pertaining to stalkers then say so and clarify. We fans know our limits I think we’re matured enough to identify which is a fantasy and reality. Is Kim Hyun Joong a fantasy?? Is a fan wish to watch his concert a fantasy? I want to understand her blog being a fan of Hyun Joong this is the least I expect to read and I regret to have read it. Here’s what she said:
But at the end of the day, it’s about separating fantasies and reality, putting ourselves in their shoes to see that sometimes our fantasies may just be yet another burden for them. So to me, HJ is no more than a cultural product with human feelings. It sounds bad to see the word ‘product’ attached to a person’s existence and trust me, I wrote the word product with much consideration and pain, even in my academic paper on HJ’s fan meeting. Anything that is sold for money is a product, and he sells because he is a cultural phenomenon for many KPOP fans out there.
I honestly could not imagine a fan would write as such. This is just like spilling out the words and taking it back gently! What does she think of Hyun Joong a whore? Can you imagine a fan taking her idol as a product?? And saying “I wrote the word product with much consideration and PAIN”. Oh this gives me a terrible headache!! May I just ask, is this what is being taught in school nowadays? If her teacher happens to be a fan of Hyun Joong she will surely fail in this academic subject!!
Hyun Joong would only be glad that his product of endorsement is selling otherwise it only means he’s a failure. Girl do you know what you’re talking about? Why else did he became a commercial model? Now if you’re talking about Uzoosin, it’s Hyun Joong’s own made. Showbiz includes commercials, and advertising, what are those huge billboards for, if your idol is popular then expect him to be all around you in huge posters and other advertising materials. Oh this girl has to learn a lot more!!
And she wrote this: He should have his rights to his own private time, to his own freedom of expression, to not smile if he does’t feel like it, to date and be with anyone, to go anywhere without being disturbed.
Then girl, you know very well about Hyun Joong’s privacy, then what were you doing at Jaksal with your friends and have his autograph in your CD? That was suppose to be his private time since he owns Jaksal, right? She wrote it, if you remember I even posted that write up in one of my articles. Now I regret to have done so. If what she have written is what Hyun Joong wished for, then why is Hyun Joong in showbiz? As a star in showbiz it is very likely an artist privacy is being deprived, that is a fact and that is given. I’m telling you Hyun Joong knows what his freedoms are and what are restricted. Let’s be at least glad he doesn’t have much stalkers as other idols has.
My fan friends use to tell me, not to roam around the internet and to keep out from other’s blog. Because they know insect bites are my worst lovers!! This may be an opinion from a fan of Hyun Joong, she may be pertaining to some fans who have gone out of their way, but my point is, if she has to point at others, she has to make sure to come up clean. In that blog I find it contradicting to her acts and her previous write ups. And I would just like to clarify Hyun Joong is an artist by heart, and reading write ups like this which is short of saying Hyun Joong is a pretender, I mean this is how I read her insinuations. I have to defend, I’m also an artist and i know how it feels being an artist like Hyun Joong. Now it gives me the impression, Hyun Joong might have turned her down!! tsk tsk..poor thing!
To those who might have share the same opinion as this fan, I think you need to know more about Hyun Joong being an artist by heart. This is so frustrating for him to have read from a fan to be writing as such. I can’t let go in passing, I have to defend being an artist. As she said:
I can’t help but think about all of these, and feel sorry for those who have forgotten reality. I’m the preacher kind and I like to tell other people what to do perhaps. I also know that I’m someone who can’t sit by and watch people destroy themselves.
I don’t think so!! Before you can preach yes I agree, preach yourself first. I’m old enough to be her mom to be preached about reality. Girl I would just like to remind this fan that Hyun Joong has quite a number of fans older than her, the noonas, career ladies, mothers, and grandmas. Hyun Joong has a life of his own that we respect and so with his privacy. How would I be convinced if I know that this fan has been tailing on Hyun Joong even in his privacy. This is not here say, she wrote it herself. Am I suppose to misunderstand now?
Lessons learned for me, never go to other blogs again!! May I just clear up my point, I don’t mean to create an enemy here, I’m just reacting to a blog that I have read from another fan. And to point out how an artist by heart feels. I don’t need to repeat myself we all know how Hyun Joong is when it comes to work. But at this point let us learn how he feels being an artist.
I don’t need to invent, his words has been at the internet, we just have to listen to what he is saying to understand, and see him on how he moves. Action speaks louder than voice.
LazerKim here writing
Photo credits as tagged, Ms.D, KHJean14, thanks.